I am a chronically ill, disabled, intersex trans woman and I have experienced abject poverty for my entire life. I also experienced barbaric surgery as an infant that has left me with incredibly painful symptoms when it comes to my genetalia, almost consistent burning, stabbing and needling sensations and during puberty the scar left over by the crooked stitching did not allow for growth causing bleeding from the age of nine for years until it healed which then left the scar to flare all the time causing suffering to this day beyond articulation. I am making this fund-raiser as a way to offer myself hope even though I know from previous attempts that these things usually go in vain for me. A single dollar can help, over time it adds up. I've likely spent half my life waiting now, for some semblance of community care but I seem to be abandoned in that aspect pretty frequently. I'd love to be proven wrong however setting up these fund-raisers is beginning to feel like an act of delusion, I have very little hope left but I guess I'll be forced to seek comfort in that delusion.