As many know I am currently working through my 100 days of sobriety, without a doubt the most difficult and challenging time I have ever experienced. I will express the deep meaning behind this decision at a later date but for now I need to focus, I'm fighting a mental battle, and I'm afraid I'm losing. Every day is pain, the second I wake, the strain begins, through my whole body I feel it, I try suppress it throughout my day but when the lights are off, and I am alone, I can't contain the voices I hear, the harmful thoughts I have. I can't give in to this, I owe it to my family, I owe it to the people who care about me, I owe it to myself to fight against it. Keeping physically healthy is such a huge part of mental health, I've change my diet, I train daily, all to put my body and mind through a true test to see what I am made of.
I want to raise awareness for anxiety and depression in our community, it kills me to think that there are people around me who feel the same way I do. Everyone is effected, It's okay to not be okay, but putting extra efforts in to help yourself is key, eat healthier, workout consistently, seeking help, talk to one another, look out for each other, find where the real pain lies. You can do anything you put your mind to, no matter how impossible it may seem, no matter how many people try put you down, stay true to yourself and strive for whatever you want in life. I am deeply flawed, by no means do I have the answers, I am horrified of running this marathon, but giving myself this goal and putting the work in to deserve it has given me one thing I've been missing, hope. Hope for better days ahead, hope that I can pull myself out of this hole, hope that I will see tomorrow.
Thankyou everyone for the ongoing support, it really means the world to me, it all motivates me to run that extra, push that harder, and see that clearer. I will post my fundraiser link, all donations are for Beyond Blue working with Australians effected by depression and anxiety, every donation is appreciated, for a cause so close to my heart.
Stay safe, look out for one another, we'll be okay.
-Love Cohen xx
I believe in you kill it tomorrow