This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my whole life. I never ask for or accept help. Every mountain I have needed to climb I have done it on my own. But after another sleepless night I've decided to swallow my pride and ask for help. As you know I stopped working FIFO because Dylan was getting bullied at school and wasnt coping. Since then it has been hit after hit after hit. If you spoke to me now you wouldn't recognise me I've completely lost my happy self. And now my car has gone on me. I kept up my mantenance but it seems was taken advantage of for trusting the wrong mechanic shop, and ultimately instead of replacing my oil pump which was the cause of a noise a few months ago. They changed my wheel bearings which were fine. And now my engine has seized. 3 different mechanics later and all with the same diagnoses that I need a new engine. Which I simply can't afford. I have called and met with almost every bank and loan company but I just don't earn enough as a single parent to get approved. A new car wasn't in my 5 year plan to be promoted and earn more. So now I'm lost. I can't work without a car. And I can't get a new car until I earn more. So I thought I would reach out and just see what happens. Thank you so much for reading about my crappy life right now. I hope you are well, I love you very much. Please don't feel obliged to donate anything at all. You are still amazing xxxx